Last night, I couldn’t get to sleep, I had thoughts running around inside my head. Stories I was inventing, role plays and events that hadn’t happened. I created thought patterns and characters for people I’d never met, or hardly knew. Playing them over and over and creating more and more imaginary information. It was because of this, I knew I needed to take time out to meditate this morning.
At the time, when I was caught in this whirlwind of thought, I was at least able to recognize it and brought my attention back to the current moment, which helped, but knew that it needed addressing on a deeper level, hence the meditation this morning.
I try to meditate each day, but that just doesn’t happen, so if I can try at least twice a week, then I feel a little more connected to myself. Each time I meditate, I am able to become the breath, I am able to sense my entire self and disconnect from thought, yet continue to acknowledge thought.
I was able to locate the tension within and offer breath to the area, which miraculously softens the tension. Images appear now and again, I use them wisely as pointers or signs, when fully connected they instantly take on meaning, which brings with it a knowing. It is a special feeling to connect with yourself on this level, a way of recharging, a way of understanding and a way of letting go. It highlights what is necessary and provides answers of true importance. It has taken me many sessions of sitting & reflection to arrive at a place where meditation has become important and useful, I now know what power lies within.
A friend of a friend began a ninety day mediation challenge and blogs about it here if you feel inclined.