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Day 139 (positive project) Connect To Your True Depth

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After a good nights sleep in our rented tent, we awoke to find breakfast. All the food stalls were supplying organically grown produce, mainly vegetarian and some raw.
The food was delicious and highlighted the importance of good food. Reducing the consumption of meat is not just a craze or a fashion, it is a healthy and more sustainable way to live.
Following breakfast I attended a chakra opening workshop, which used forms of yoga to activate the seven main chakras. Again, with an open heart and mind I fully submerged myself in the workshop. One part of the workshop involved finding a partner with which to work the heart chakra. The facilitator explained that this particular activity is one to open the heart and improve relationships.
I found a male partner, we placed our hands on each others’ hearts and looked directly into each others eyes whilst taking deep relaxing, trusting breaths.
It was unbelievable the connection that this created. Taking a complete stranger and sharing this intimate experience really does open the heart and emphasizes compassion. You are able to see yourself and truly feel the depth of a human connection, embracing my fears of judgement and allowing this moment to absorb into my field of consciousness.

Without having said a word to one another, this previous stranger and I; now had a profound connection . The simple art of allowing this to occur without judgement seemed to enable each of us to open to the experience and feel each others space and develop confidence.
The workshop progressed to a group activity involving five separate smaller groups chanting a different tone or beat. Each group chanted their particular routine and then slowly intermingled, continuing to chant as we all walked among each other. This developed into a highly energized coming together of power and connectedness. The energy I felt during this exercise was intense and very difficult to explain.
The entire experience was very special and highlighted the importance of human connection, the presence of a higher energy and the depth of human experience.

We are much more than a physical body and a set of circumstances, you simply need to learn to connect to that depth.

Day 125 (positive project) Amazing Trust

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Yesterday we drove a quad to Nosara. Which in itself is a positive because what male wouldn’t enjoy driving a Quad bike over rough ground and through rivers? It’s just plain fun. But that aside, my point of focus of today’s (feb 17) post is trust.
Whilst looking through a store in Nosara, we became familiar with the store keeper and discovered that he made his own jewelry. He was very friendly and helpful. I decided to buy an item from him. He explained at the start that he would take a credit card but on time of payment the telephone line was down and he couldn’t take the money.
So we asked if he could save it and we would come to try again later. Now that part that surprised me and has made me stand back in awe was the fact that he refused to do this, telling us to keep the item and come back to pay tomorrow!
I tried to say no and to give it him back, but he wasn’t having it. He insisted we take it and return to pay another time.

This has taught me a huge deal about trust and I wish this trust was experienced everywhere around the world.

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Day 54 (positive project) Worry Turns to Trust

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The entire premise of this blog hinges on emotion.  The very act of being positive relates to feelings of positivity and is therefore inseparable from emotion.  This awareness of ones ‘state of being’ has brought me closer to my emotions and places them somewhat in the spotlight, forcing me to take a look at them.

Now the topic of emotions is HUGE and many books have been written and will be written on this matter.  But, my current interpretation on emotions (and I reserve the right to change my opinions) is that emotions are indicators, signposts, a way to measure how you are doing and if you are on the right path.  Being able to access these emotions, or at least recognizing them when they appear is very beneficial to setting the path you desire.

Bringing positivity to the forefront during this project, obviously brings with it the negativity as you need to have both polarities for the other to exist.  Positivity has no context without negativity.  So when one attempt to remain positive, you tend to look at negative in order to choose the path.  This brought me to a fork in the road, one path is doubt, the other is trust….

We harbour doubts and mistrusts to protect ourselves. We create suffering when there is no need. The bad stuff happens in ones head, but that is merely worry. For one need not protect himself, when one is surrounded by positivity and honesty. Have faith that humanity will provide only good and if ‘badness’ does occur then be it dealt with then, as that is enough to contend with. Extra undue worry, simply adds.  It is merely mind clutter that wasteth time and emotion.  TRUST.

~ Alan  Churchill

Never disregard your emotions and never be your emotions, use them wisely.

Join me in turning Worry into Trust.

I am my own Strength

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This is unbelievable. Last week i experienced a massive shift of energy inside and outside of me. It has clearly been something I have needed to do for many years now and finally I have been able to make the shift.
Whilst reading the Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss, I became tuned in to a part of my psyche or energy system that has been in a dark place for many years, in fact possibly for my entire life.
There has been a series of events over the last few years that has led me to understand that there was something I needed to work on, and now I finally have discovered it.

Ex-Partners

I have always been unable to remain friends with ex-girlfriends and have had issues with girlfriends being friends with their exes, I am just uncomfortable with it.
Having been told that I have a block of energy (which I believe now felt like more of a leak) around my 3rd chakra, I realized that I needed to work with self-esteem and confidence. I seem like a pretty confident person, but realized there must be a part of me that needs improvement.

Near the start of my current relationship, I explained to my girlfriend that I would not be able to be friends with her if we were to break up. (This is just usual behaviour for me. The reason behind which, I did not know until this moment)
My girlfriend is friends with a couple of her exes, she regards them more as friends than exes, however this still has bothered me. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out that the main emotions involved in a situation like this, is that of jealousy and trust. I didn’t like the negative thoughts I have had in relation to this, so wanted to delve deeper into myself in an attempt to discover if my fears were justified, or if I could release these negative emotions.

I needed to understand that ‘the ex’ is not my enemy, but indeed my teacher in this exercise. The ex is showing me a reflection of a part of me; a shadow of my real character, a shadow containing my inability to continue a friendship with an ex. The 3rd Chakra deals with self esteem and I feel that lack of self-esteem is the very reason I can not remain friends with an ex. Thoughts such as “What if my ex’s new guy is better than me” – “Why has she chosen him over me?” – “What if my girlfriends ex has better qualities than I?” – “Is her ex trying to put me down to make himself look better?” – All are examples of a lack of self-esteem and the inability to accept what is and to just allow the freedom of choice and natural selection, without making up negative outcomes or stories in my head, or by doubting my own strengths.

It occurred to me in a very profound moment, that it was not a trust issue, but that I was infact jealous of my girlfriends exes’ ability to be friends with her. It was against my “beliefs”. Upon realizing that the reason I was jealous of him was because he was able to be this friend, suddenly made me see the simplicity of my problem – ‘Stop holding a belief that only serves you negative emotions and realize that I CAN be that friend.’ Suddenly understanding that my energies were being spent in a negative way; by feeding the lack of belief in myself, I felt a huge rush of energy into my body and an intense heat in my stomach and solar plexus. I soon began to laugh hysterically as I held that feeling and began to cry with laughter and relief. I had unplugged my energies from the negative stream of the need to be better than others, the fear of being second best or being put down by ‘the new boyfriend’ or ‘the current ex”. My entire body began to tingle right to the edges and my breath filled up, a weight lifted from me. It was very intense lasted for a good 5 or 10 minutes and made me smile all through. I now know that I could remain friends with my girlfriend; should she become an ex. I am happy that her exes can be friends with her, they have taught me a lesson I never thought I could learn. I am grateful for these teachers who you initially see as a threat. I now have no negative energies travelling between me and these newly regarded teachers. I feel recharged, replenished and cut off from the energy drain I was previously attached to.

I will love my girlfriend, be her mine, or someone else’s. I thank her for her guidance, acceptance and for her forever blossoming friendship, whatever form it holds.

Simplicity

Being completely over taken by this amazing experience, an inexplicable madness, the purest of all feelings, is a treat. It is pure unadulterated insights from somewhere much deeper than the mind. I have experienced this hilarious excitable knowing previously; for the first time in 2008 whilst reading the Power of Now. It is what I believe to be a snapshot of enlightenment. You feel like the ‘crazy person’ that walks down the street just laughing at absolutely nothing. It’s a relief. You are laughing at how ridiculous your previous situation was and how simple things can be. This is the only way I can describe it. The mind can always creep back in and try to convince you otherwise, but once you learn to receive the truth from a deeper source and trust this guidance, you understand which guidance is pure and which one is born of opinions, beliefs and conditioning from the external world.

Ironically, it takes a bit of work to keep things simple. Don’t give away your energies to others, you deserve it all for yourself. If you notice someone or something draining you of your power then I suggest you Take the Power Back. (I used to be a big fan of Rage against the Machine. After thinking about this post for a while this song came to me and I can certainly relate it to this experience). To benefit from those moments of deep insight I encourage people to really step outside themselves, to look at any situation with a fresh set of eyes, as if you were not you, understand that there are many angles from which to view things. Still time away from the external pressures of modern society can help with this, including well practiced yoga and mediation. Don’t let your thoughts run away with you, thoughts are a tool to use, not a definitive truth. Step outside your-self, you are more than a body and mind, ‘You’ are the awareness that experiences life through your body and mind (self). Treat your vessel with respect, listen to your body too, it contains many clues to your health and don’t put it through too much stress. Be good to yourself.

I would love to hear anyone’s comments on this post, please post any thoughts or feelings you have, thank you.

(on a side note – whilst hunting around for a cool picture to go with this post I found the one inserted above on a cool site that I thought I should direct you to – www.shantea.net)

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