Day 120 (positive project) Letting the Dust Settle

Made the four month mark of this project! That’s something! Anyway……

If you have been reading my last few Costa Rica blogs, you will know that the roads are very dusty here. The dust experienced during my last few days of hiking the roads, followed by this day of relaxation, has led me to an interesting metaphor.
The only real reason of coming to Costa Rica for me, was to ground myself by getting away from all distractions. I enjoy so many different pastimes and get all caught up in them, not knowing where to focus my energies and efforts. When one gets caught up in all this, it is like being on the dusty road, climbing the hill in the heat. When you allow for the dust to settle you get chance to glimpse why you are really on the road, or in fact on the right road.
It’s a little like stripping down your activities to nothing, re-prioritizing them and deciding which ones you want to put back in your bag of life and carry with you.

So as I allow the dust to settle, my focus re-adjusts and I trust when I leave Costa Rica my goals will be re-aligned.

Day 51 (positive project) Relax

I am the sort of person that feels I need to achieve things during my day.  I don’t necessarily have a physical list, but there are things I like to do, something to achieve.  If I don’t do these things, I tend to be hard on myself.  I get frustrated as I look back over the day and then wind myself up, feeling that I have wasted a day.

Relax

Today, I did nothing until at least 1pm.  At first I started feeling like I was wasting the day, but in my new positive outlook methodology, I slowly observed and morphed these feelings into positivity, allowing myself to include “Do Nothing” as an achievement!!

The act of doing nothing, allows me to replenish energy to do something with later.  It also, created the room for this particular blog post, so from nothing comes something.

Day 20 (positive project) Complaining

I am currently working a job that involves some rather mundane physical labour.  During this work, I am left alone with my thoughts, whilst (as it currently stands) I scrub algae from the bottom of a boat. This has both benefits and problems. One benefit, is that I am able to filter through some thoughts and file things, organize things in my head and generally do a bit of housekeeping of the mind.  During this process I came up with todays positive change.  But first, the problems with the job, just to set a bit of background.

"This is FUN!"

I ache, I get bored, I get cold, I injure myself, I spill chemicals over me, I get wet, I feel pain! So, this has lead me to complain a little bit, not only to other people but to myself, in my head, for much of the day.  It’s been getting to me and I am fed up of it (the complaining that is).  So, here enters my positive change.  I currently have one week left of this particular job and it is my plan to not complain for the rest of my time in the job.  Being British however, this could be a challenge.  I started today whilst under the boat, each time a sigh of questioning frustration and exhaustion left my lungs, I would catch myself and smile.  I even laughed a few times, laughing at how easy I become frustrated.  Music helped me too, although when earbuds fall out whilst spraying bleach, suited up in rubber gloves, goggles and a face mask, in a crawl space the size of a glove-box, the task of re-fitting the audible light relief was cringeworthy.  But no, no complaints.  People have it way worse, I need to be grateful.

So hence the idea of no complaints was born.  I need to give myself some ground rules here as I need to be clear how I can avoid complaining.  Complaining is part of my culture, it’s also factored in to my humour delivery.

Complain – express dissatisfaction or annoyance about a state of affairs or an event

Ok, so all I have to is not express dissatisfaction – If I am dissatisfied with something, how can I make the dissatisfaction known without complaining? Surely I am not to just put up with a situation I don’t like?  Maybe that’s exactly what I do.

I am going to stop complaining for the next week.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

You are so Important

I have just realised how important it is to look after yourself.  Now, I am not referring to looking both ways as you cross the road, or to getting an early nights sleep; although both of those are very wise and come as standard snippets of good advice.  I am talking about setting time aside to really nourish yourself on a deeper level and allow yourself time to free yourself from the mind and the confines of social structure and judgements.

Finding an answer

In 2007 whilst I was living in New Zealand, I picked up a book by Eckhart Tolle called “The Power of Now“.  The book spoke to me on many different levels, but more than anything else, it immediately drove me to leave the job I was in and pursue a different one.  This change lead me to many exciting things, including the chance to complete 2 skydives, fly a stunt plane, take a helicopter ride, river rafting and many more cool things that I didn’t even have to pay for! It was an amazing transformation from the stresses I was dealing with prior to the new job. Continue reading

Direction, Distraction & Desires

A New Year

So the end of another Gregorian Calendar year has turned.  This year I have been able to see the turn of the New Year for what it really is, rather than an excuse to go out, get drunk, throw up and have a killer headache on the first day, of what is supposed to be, a fresh start!

So what is it all about?   Continue reading